Morally Reprehensible

It starts......

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 05:32:01 GMT

Hey, guys!I can't believe I'm leaving tomorrow. I no longer own the Geo. An era has ended. I just wanted to let you guys know that for the most part I won't be writing in this journal any longer--it's been dead for awhile. My new journal will be aflumpsinlondon . I will be updating all of you as I go, but my cell phone will still be working until next Mon (that's when we officially fly to London). I love you all and please send me all your e-mail addresses and friend my new journal. I miss you!

Rachel

Sweet, sweet nights

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 20:00:35 GMT

So, I'm stuck in chem lab with nothing to do for the next 15 min. So, I'm doing this. I'm typing on a keyboard with sticky keys and lab goggles resting on my forehead. I haven't updated in God knows how long, but here it is.

Great news:
Classes are going well, though they are starting to get a little more stressful now. Favorites: Acting IV (where I cry every frickin day. That class is a therapy session I swear) and Girls, Violence and Anti-Social behavior. The last is so much fun and so interesting. We get to discuss things like the impact Buffy the Vampire Slayer has on girls and their violent behavior. Hee hee.

Even better news:
I'm in another IU play. This play--I never thought I would get into it since everyone and their mother tried out for it (read: Auditioned, not try out). I got the part I wanted plus two other parts as we are doubling up on parts. It's awesome. Oh....and I have to appear somewhat nude. As in, probably topless. I'm actually excited about this play though the nudity thing threw my parents for something of a loop. But they're coping.

Chinchilla front:

She's doing well, though she's getting fiesty. She actually bit me the other day. Not hard and she didn't break skin, but still fiesty. Is it sad I'm a little proud of her for being so fiery? Chinchilla of terror indeed.

Looking forward to Andrew Bird and the prospect of visiting friends.

By the way, I was listening to my ipod today and "Here's to the night" came on. I found myself listing things that song makes me think of. Here's what I came up with.

vanilla coke
Al's Diner
5am
Envirosys
the Dunes
Valplayso
Swinging in prom dresses
crazy picture days
euchre w/may kwok,lindsay cronk, and Robyn Schroeder
Ritchie Valens
Crimson and Clover
Graduating

The last one made me hyperventilate a little. On the other hand, I can't wait until I no longer havve to type lab reports or papers for a grade. Or until I could spend all day learning lines for a play instead of only having two hours to get off book. Eek. Here we go again.

I knew you guys would understand this

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 01:07:06 GMT

I feel incredibly silly, but I am so very sad right now. John Spencer just died of a heart attack. I love that man. He always seemed like such a big teddy bear.

Anyway, I'll be home tomorrow night sometime. I have to work occasionally but I will be simply taking day trips to and from Bloomington for those days. So far the days I have to work are Wed and Christmas eve (10a-4p). I want to have oodles of fun this break, so I'll call all of you when I get back into town.

I'm gonna go eat Skyline dip now and watch movies with my roommates before doing some laundry and packing.

Good night

Joss Whedon, you bastard!

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 03:39:41 GMT

Okay so I have now seen Serentiy twice. You rat bastard, Joss Whedon--God, I love your work. Fucker. And now I've changed my background, though I admit, it isn't my best work ;P

So, I'm no obssessed with the following song by the Decemberists.

"Red Right Ankle"

This is the story of your red right ankle
And how it came to meet your leg
And how the muscle bone and sinews tangled
And how the skin was softly shed
And how it whispered,
"Oh, adhere to me for we are bound by symmetry
And whatever differences our lives have been
We together make a limb"
This is the story of your red right ankle

This is the story of your gypsy uncle
You never knew cause he was dead
And how his face was carved an ripped with wrinkles
In the picture in your head
And remember how you found the key
To his hide-out in the Pyrenees,
But you wanted to keep his secret safe,
So you threw the key away?
This is the story of your gypsy uncle

This is the story of the boys who loved you
Who love you now and loved you then
And some were sweet and some were cold and snuffed you
And some just layed around in bed
And some, they crumbled you straight to your knees
Did it cruel, did it tenderly
Some they crawled their way into your heart
To rend your ventricles apart
This is the story of the boys who loved you
This is the story of your red right ankle

Why? Why can't I write something like this? Anyway, I'm going through a more introspective period. I take a lot of pictures. Don't mock me! I am not the sad art kid wandering down the street with a camera.

Just had our third rehearsal and David and I were actually friendly to each other. It was awkward and it will be for a while, but at least it's getting better.

I don't know how, but spending this time around him makes me feel better most of the time. Still, it makes me sad too. I don't know if it's because I'm still in love with him or if I'm sad for the loss of it. Either way, I'm finally accepting the idea that he and I will never be again. Ah, pisser. I need a good glass of Rhine wine. Binder? Here's to the rhine and the deutschland. I miss you all, but know I am doing a lot better than I was.

PS-I think this one guy at my work is cute, but his name is Curtis so we can never date. My dad is called Curtis or Curt. No, sadly, appliance-boy and I will never date. Tear.

Lindsay, I'm taking some pictures for your parents since they missed the changing of the leaves when they were down in Bloomington.

Nissa, Brigitte, we must get together soon and just hang out. I now have a swank new digital camera thanks to Best Buy (free to me! HEE) and I own Kung Fu Hustle (also free). We must partake. Has anyone heard about this series Highlander: The Raven? I also got that whole series for fee and I was just wondering if it's any good. Meh. Must go try to read for class. Boo. No good.

JJ Abraams---there are no words. I reiterate all men are assholes.....

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 15:22:29 GMT

and Jen Garner is a bitch if she's the reason Michael Vartan was axed. But maybe I'm associating her with someone else I know. *cough* emo kid *cough, cough*. Asshole.

So, in case you don't know. David broke up with me 3 weeks into our relationship this summer. Pretty much convinced me I should wait for him, seemed really understanding, then turned into a complete dick. In retrospect, knowing what I know now, I think he was almost keeping me on a leash. He had a crush on someone else (maybe not at the end of our relationship but at least two weeks into the break-up) and just wanted to have someone on stand-by if she said "no." So, yeah. I'm bitter. I waited for two and half months before finding out he was dating someone else. It's complicated and i really don't have enough time to go into the whole thing. Sum up: Me trying to still be somewhat friends with him because this behavior is completely opposite to his "normal" behavior, but if he keeps being an asshole (aka not smiling or talking to me when I try to be friendly--read: smile and say "hi")I am cutting him out completely. So, I'm bitter and incredibly hurt. Luckily, I have the Annies and Alex to keep me going along with the already wonderful Brigitte and Nissa (and soon to be.....?). He isn't ruling my life, but unfortunately, he's still that little knife in the back of my head that digs in and twists every now and then.

So, my point is. If Jen Garner ruined Alias, this show I take comfort in...fuck you. You just don't do that to someone you work with. You started dating someone you work with, that's the price you pay. Deal with it.

So, I'm done. But once I actually have internet--haven't had it since early August--I'll try to write more often.

I am cold and still in awe

Mon, 16 May 2005 16:33:29 GMT

I saw Crash Saturday. Please, please, please go see this movie. It's intense but absolutely stunning. Very blunt,very honest portrayal of racism especially the racism found in LA. Sandra Bullock, Pena, and Thandie Newton, as well as the amazing Don Cheadle were all wonderful. This is Paul Haggis first time directing a movie and it's so unbelievable. Probably the best movie I have EVER seen.

So, I haven't written in a while. My internet went down for a couple of days and my schedule's been crazy since both work and classes started last week. I go to class, go to work, then go to rehearsal, come home do homework and sleep. Today is the first day in the last 5 that I have not had work. Crazy, but money is good.

My grades came out okay. I ended up with a B in physics- a miracle--and a B+ in Organic, which wasn't what I wanted but still wasn't bad. I got an A+ in two of my classes! Seriously, this made me so happy since both were in my two favorite classes--Theatre History and Criminal Investigation. Those two classes were the ones with huge papers and I wasn't sure how the grades would turn out.

It is pretty cold in Bloomington right now for May and Ballantine has the air conditioner on. Brrrr..

So, I'm glad I'm doing better now, but just so you know, I miss home A LOT right now. Last week I had this horrible bout of homesickness. I really hated being down here while you are all going to be spending at least some time home. I still hate it, but I'm coping. I really miss you guys and even though I know it really couldn't have been helped, I wish I weren't staying here over the summer. Nothing beats a Valpo summer.

On a better note, I might be living in London for a couple months after graduation. I don't know yet, nothing is definite, but I'm thinking about it.

Anyway, I have to go catch a bus. I love you all and really can't wait to see you. If you want to, you can all come see my play, then we can have fun.

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 03:57:32 GMT

So, I step off the shuttle today onto campus and am greeted by one giant picture of a fetus. "Shit" quoth I. A girl next to me gave me an understanding look as we walked into Ballantine. It sucked big time. They were absolutely everywhere and I kept wanting to walk up to them and smack them or at least yell at them.

I think everyone should be able to express their beliefs. It's one of those things that's great about this country. Abortion is just one of those hot topics, I suppose. Mostly I think i was angry that I saw so many people taking their pamphlets. I just want them to stop making Christians look ignorant, militant, and hateful. "Stop it!" was mostly what I wanted to say to them. So, I called Lindsay, who made me feel SO much better. By the way, i'm sorry I called you at work. I totally forgot you work at that time.
I also wrote them a letter explaining why I was angry--it was fairly polite, no curse words. It was also a silly Flumpy thing I do. I told myself that if they crossed my path on my way to the bus stop, I would give it to them. No one crossed my path but writing the letter was very cathartic and made me feel better.

The rest of my day has gone a hell of a lot better. Tonight was the first time I actually didn't have to work on ANYTHING! My two papers due this week, my lab, and my exam are all done! I had a great rehearsal last night. I had a good day at work, a good second interview, and a sundae from MacDonald's. Plus, I'm going to watch The American President.

I stole this from Binder. I especially like the sexy one. Ooooooo! The edgier side of Flumpy. He he.

Night.

PS-No! You do not do that to Spy Daddy...ever.

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[mood| Sleepy]

Grrrr Argh

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 19:24:22 GMT

So, Althea and Nick are now back together. Fuck.....and they have been all weekend.

I'm sick of paper writing but I'm going to do more of it right now. Must get this paper done by tonight if I'm going to have time to study and do my lab. I also have rehearsals this week, which i'm happy about but causes a time crunch.

Le sigh.

After this week I'm practically home free. I don't even have any more quizzes in orgo. Rock!

"I'm fine with the rushing of power and praise to the undeserved...."

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 17:30:05 GMT

There are kids next to me practicing their German while listening to textbooks dialogues on headphones. I love the language lab. I've decided that since I'm staying for the second summer session, I might as well stay for the first as well. I can take Introduction to Arabic, Writing Fiction, and Literature for Young Adults in the first section and Stage Craft and Physics in the second. Plus, maybe I can get that job at Barnes and Noble that I've always wanted. He he.

Anyone else freak out when they found out the cover for Harry Potter 6 is out? I know i did. Then I put it as my desktop. Nothing can stop my joy.

Sunday was a wonderful day. Binder and I went on two separate drives, each accompanied by food. There were such beautiful moments in that first drive. When we first saw Lake Monroe and the sun was shining off it and boats were toodling their way under the bridge. Then, while driving through this quiet stretch of woods, Death Cab's "Passenger Seat" started to play. A truly perfect moment. It was so warm and I had nothing actually due the next day--a first in a long while. I even have homework due on Satudays this semester. But that Sunday, I was carefree and rejoicing in friendship, Jude Law, and hot cheese and bacon potatoes.

So, I'm tired and a little stressed since I have two midterms this week--Physics on Wednesday and Orgo lab on Thursday. Lucky me, my orgo lab prof decided to not give any details about the midterm until today. Woopee. Fuck off stress. I don't like you.

I cling to the near proximity of Spring Break. It's so close. I'll just sleep and eat and read. Maybe I'll shop if I'm buying like $5 movies or something. I love you all and wish to see you soon.

No, that's too much.

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 10:40:10 GMT

Aaaah! So very happy. I have never felt so fulfilled in all my life. They could have let me down so easily. I had built them up in my mind for so long that it would have been really easy to let me down. But they didn't! Jump delivered like no other. And even though I was terrified because I'm just so shy in meeting new people anyway and I may have seemed embarrasses--I love you, Brigitte, for forcing me to whore myself out for autographs and pictures--and cake! It was awesome. Small venue. We were right up to the front of the stage near the amps. My heart felt everything. Wheeeeee! Certain things that made my night: 1). Ward's Kerry-Edwards pin on his guitar strap 2). Matt teasing Brigitte by first saying "No, that's too much" when she asked if she could have a picture with him and then calling her--in a "you're so cute" fashion--a true fangirl. It was adorable 3). Putting my arm around Jay Clifford. It's not that I'm obssessive, it's just I love all of his songs so much and I'm shy about touching men I admire. I have this thing. His sweater was soft. Uh, that wasn't meant to sound as creepy as it sounded. Anyway, I was fairly casual and felt proud of myself except for that point where I couldn't seem to make conversation with Ward. I suddenly became the shy girl in the corner again. Shit. Oh, well, fucking fantastic night! Woo hoo! Many smiles, nice men, nice looking cowboy man Jump fan--you know who I'm talking about, Brigitte. Plus, First Kiss was this performance by both Matt and this girl named Lindsay from Chicago who signed the whole thing (obviously, in sign language). It was hot.

It's almost 6am. I feel great.

Sitting like a mindless clone, wishing he would tap my phone

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 20:25:39 GMT

I love the song "David Duchovny." I think that song and the movie Amelie made my mood a hell of a lot better last night. I had forgotten I'd put the song on my new mix until I was on my way to criminal investigation class. I started dancing, then replayed the song like eight times.

Kicking ass on my theatre history test today didn't hurt my mood either. Plus, it's SUNNY (!) and warm. I love it. I walked around outside today and skipped organic chem lab lecture because I just didn't want to go. After that test, I literally have nothing to do this week other than my weekly quizzes and calm problems. So, so happy. No more exams this week. Heee heeee!

For anyone who has not seen this movie, my icon is from Finding Neverland. It makes me so happy. God, I suppose this is my sadistic tendency to enjoy the suffering of my favorite character. But it makes them better! But you have to belieeeeeeeeeve me!

yes, definitely feeling better. Want to take a nap though. Awesome sauce. Must now go to organic discussion. Blegh.

[mood| Better]

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 04:04:39 GMT

I like this quiz, but then I'm obssessive about all things Harry Potter. What? I answered Remus Lupin when they asked which character I related to the most. So, I'm not a tormented English man who periodically turns into a werewolf. It's a question of the soul. I UNDERSTAND him!

You're a Ravenpuff!: You are a very analytical and
ingenius person, someone that likes to invent
new things. The way you look at life is with
wonder, and sometimes you're even a little
naive. But people love you for that trait and
they feel the need to protect you from the
harsh facts of life so that you can retain your
innocence. You are very capable person and when
there is trouble people turn to you because
you're able to stay calm and collected. You
like balance in your life and you try not to
make many waves. Even still, if there is
something that you believe strongly in, you
will commit yourself totally to that cause.
Your weakness is that sometimes you can be
indecisive and perfectionist, especially about
little details and you drive people crazy
sometimes with these traits. With the
innocence of a Hufflepuff and the calm of a
Ravenclaw you will be loved in life!

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I just spent way too much money on my hair. Like almost $200. I don't care. If I have to do more work at the cafe to pay for it, I will. it looks awesome. Picture coming either tomorrow or later tonight. The pc will be taken tonight though, so you can see it. She flat ironed it. Be prepared for....no flump.

So, you know what sucks? Me getting a D on my Physics test. He better curve that fucking thing. I'll get a C if he curves it. I can deal with that. But no D's dammmnit. Not again!

Tired, want to sleep. I have a quiz tomorrow in Organic, I had a quiz yesterday in Organic lab, and I have a theatre history test on Tuesday. Weird. I really like theatre history. I could definitely see myself being a historian, which kind of weirds me out. Of course, I can see myself being a lot of things. That's my problem.

Anyway, stories are coming along nicely. Hmmm, what else? Oh, I'm auditioning for a couple of plays. I'm finding a new monologue. It's going to be from W;t, I think. I love that play. Nothing new really here. I love this dog. Cutest stuffed-looking dog ever. Seriously, he looks like a GUND doll.

Hope everyone's well. I miss you all. I love you guys.

Brigitte--I <3 Huckabees is playing this weekend. Wanna go? I'm seeing it with theatre people (Kara, Ross, maybe Mark) tomorrow. Do you want to see it just you and me or in a big group? I still have your Dane Cook CD.

[mood| Dorky]

Hey there Sports Fans!

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 21:18:51 GMT

Mmmmmm...I'm a little tired, but not too much. I'm a little hungry, but not too much. It's been a fine day. It's raining, but warm.

Isaac (Hannah's dog that has been staying with us) was a little whiny today. I've taken him on three walks. I think he's just still weirded out that I'm the one who is home the most during the day and he's used to Hannah. He slept a little in my lap today, though. Awwwwww. He's so cute even when he's pestering you. Oh, God, do I ever need a pet of my own. I think after Isaac leaves, I need to buy myself a mouse or rabbit or something. I need something to take care of.

I'm feeling a bit of a weight lifting off of me. I like it. It's subtle this time, like the weight's lifting off gradually, which could mean it will actually go away for a while. Yes, I'm talking about what you probably think I'm talking about. My big decision back-fired, but I've oddly started to come to terms with that and just say "Fuck it." It'll happen if and when it happens.

Cold Mountain, Oh, how I love thee! Mountain music, radiant landscapes, and too many pretty people to count.

My weekend home went well. My parents, brother, and I all went to the Museum of Science and Industry on Saturday. Speaking of which, I had fun nerding out at that museum, but I really wanted to see Macchu Picchu at the Field Museum. I paid for admission and lunch. It is somehow gratifying to pay for your parents every now and then. Olive Garden was eaten on Friday along with loads o' cake. Mmmmmmmmm. Lunch and talk with Binder on Sunday. Don't worry too much about the James Dean CD; I'll hear it when you find it, Jessie.

I think I might try to get my chem lab done tonight so I can just spend tomorrow studying for Physics test on Wed. Oh! I found a good salon down here and since tomorrow is Mardi Gras, I've decided to dye my hair again. Wheeee!

Nissa, I really wish my classes hadn't interfered with Mardi Gras trippage. I love you and I'll try to make it there next year! We'll work it out.

Wow, was this accurate. Catch all of y'all later!

RACHEL
R	is for	Relaxing
A	is for	Astounding
C	is for	Cynical
H	is for	Hyper
E	is for	Edgy
L	is for	Lovesick

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[mood| Good]

Eleanor, where is your heart?

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 14:23:02 GMT

Sense and Sensibility is one of those movies that can rescue you from any bad mood. So, I think you all need a little bit more of an explanation for my mood during the last week. Both Hannah (my roommate) and Althea (my other roommate) now have boys. I don't mean throw away boys, I mean boys that they either have fallen for and now spend most of their time around (Hannah) or boys that they are slowly beginning to like more and more with the potential to fall really hard (Althea). It's disheartening to walk into an apartment and know that the rooms on either side of you are occupied by couples. When all of us were without boys, I wasn't as frustrated or confused. Okay, I probably was, but I generally didn't let myself feel it. I've sort of made a decision on what to do with my situation. That's all I'll say for now.

Know that now that I've made a decision, I feel better. I hum Supreme Beings of Leisure songs to myself as I walk. It's great! My Criminal Investigations class is awesome. We talked about Interviews and Interrogation last night. We even got to watch a real interrogation tape. Hee hee. I love this stuff. YOu know what else I love? Juoaquin Phoenix being on my journal screen. I need to see Hotel Rwanda and A Very Long Engagement. Hmmm *rubs hands together, plotting grand scheme*

Brigitte, I would love to play Dark Alliance with you. I just found out last night that i have an organic test on Wednesday night. It shouldn't be too bad. I think I know most of the material. It's just going through a ton of problems to make sure I know how to apply what I know. My point is, we should probably do it after Wednesday. Actually, maybe we could do it Wednesday night after 8:30 or 9p, if that's ok with you? I don't know what classes you have the next day. Let me know.

Binder, I am writing a letter in pieces during my breaks between classes. Now that I have everyone's addresses, I'm actually formulating letters for all of you. I just have to remember to collect the little scraps.

Kathryn, your comments always make me feel better no matter what. Thank you.

Well, I'm off to finish some organic lab crap before heading off to class at 11a.

PS- Is it possible to love Green Day as much as I do right now? American Idiot. Fantastic Rock Opera.

[mood| Calm]

A Happy Entry--Yeah!

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 00:29:20 GMT

I figured you all might be thinking this to yourselves when you see this entry. Yes, it is a happy entry. I had a lot of fun last night with the girls. We went to Hannah's first, drank a little (coffee and bailey's as well as a couple shots of green apple vodka) and watched Poltergeist. Then, we went to a party and got pretty drunk on vodka and coke. It was a lot of fun. Hannah and I stayed up until 4a talking. Unfortunately, I had to wake up early and take my car for an estimate. In the process, I fell again. Grrr. Besides the fall and me spending almost four hours on 3 Physics problems(!), my day's been pretty good.

Now, I'm ready for another Bubble night and perhaps another party after. We're all going out for dinner--awesome! Tomorrow will be my day of study but I plan on taking a few of those hours for reading of Johnathan Strange. I haven't picked it up in a while, not because I don't like it, but because I'm always exaughsted when I start to read and it's so BIG. My arms just collapse. Seriously. *nods* No, they don't. Yes, they do. *nods* No, they really don't. I'm just lazy and I sometimes like to draw out the amount of time it takes me to read something to savour it.

Well, I'm a little tired, but I've had a nap and all is slowly getting less fuzzy. I think I might get the girls to watch Ju-On tonight. That movie just makes me so happily terrified. Anyway, gotta go. Hope your nights go well.

[mood| Happy]

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 17:52:53 GMT

So, yesterday, I skipped Physics and spent the rest of the day paying for it. First, I break glassware in orgo lab--which I have to pay for. Not too bad since it's only $2. Then, I fall down the stairs on my way to pick up Kara for Alias night. My foot now hurts everytime I walk on it and my elbow's twisted. Then, to top it all off, I started my period yesterday. Woop de frickin' do for me.

I'm actually better now. After work tonight, I can just study and sleep. And there's a scary movie night at Kara's or Hannah's on Friday. I'm introducing them to Ju-On. Nothing new on the boy front, though. Just more confusion. Anyway, got to go.

[mood| Tired]

IT

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 17:23:38 GMT

Yeah, so, apparently my brother's class had the "It" talk yesterday at school. You know what "It" means, right? Just checking.

I'm caught between being amused at my brother's reaction and feeling a tad uncomfortable at the knowledge of my little brother now knowing the intricacies of sex. Meh. At least I can sort of talk about it around him now and not have to whishper "sex" everytime my mother and I oggle the men on my television.

Must go. Have v. important organic nonsense to do.

PS-I really, really LOVE my icon. Makes me happy!

[mood| Amused]

Buy me a shiny new machine, runs on lies and gasoline

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 16:31:48 GMT

[mood| Determined]

Cat Stevens just warms my soul, which is good cause it's f-ing cold!

I'm in a much better mood considering I felt a little less than brilliant in Organic Chemistry today. Prof. Oakley enjoys randomly calling on people in lecture and, of course, I was one of her many victims today. I got the first part of the problem correct (though she had to prompt me a little because having an audience automatically sparked uncertainty in all of my answers). The second part though was not so good and it took an inordinate amount of prompting. I've definitely come to the realization, however, that I need to get used to making mistakes even in front of huge classes. That is what Chemistry is all about. For the most part, I'm pretty sure the majority of the class had so clue what to do on that second part anyway. I'm going to go to office hours tomorrow and ask her some questions. I really want to do well in this class and that may mean actually asking for help. I'm not always very good at that.

I'm having this wonderful productive, creative feeling right now. I have about an hour and a half before I need to get on a bus/shuttle to get to my Physics lab, so I'm going to do some Physics problems, maybe study organic, and work on some fantastic story ideas I've gotten in the past couple of weeks. So excited! I don't know whether I'll finish any of the stories since my pattern of writing is usually to come up with a great concept and then get frustrated when I try to execute it. I may not post any stories if I finish them anyway since I'm pretty self-conscious about my writing skills overall. I will tell you one of the stories was inspired by a documentary on the Humboldt(?) Squid. It was really interesting. Shut up! I am not lame!

I have Foundations of Criminal Investigation today! Yeah! Woo hoo! Wow, I am way too excited about this.

What teacher says screw grades, I want me some basketball players?!

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 04:57:16 GMT

[mood| Crappy]

This was my question the entire time I watched Coach Carter. I swear, all of these teachers were suddenly all "giving progress reports creates more work" and "I was offended when a basketball coach came in and asked me for the grades of my students." Honestly, most teachers are worried about how academics takes a backseat to athletics. Are you shitting me?

Anyway, for some reason, I've been feeling pretty lame today. After my awesome Wednesday, I suppose it all had to go down hill. I've just been off today. I usually hide it really well down here--rarely can anyone tell. I just feel like I don't really like myself that much today. Although, I did dominate in Physics in discussion. Other than that, though, I've been having a very self-conscious, worrisome day. I've been stressing about our child presenter tomorrow not actually knowing what he's talking about. Nina will get on my case, I know it. I just want to sleep and not study for my organic quiz. Binder, I honestly can't wait to have you here. I miss people who share my weirdness and sense of humor.

I feel the need to have my life sorted out. Problem is, much of that is depending on other people right now, which sucks. I'm going to go study now. Night. Sorry for the depressing post.

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 03:29:27 GMT

[mood| Crazy]

Why I love Nissa by herflumpness.

While talking about Vaughn almost being injected (in the EYE!) with the incredibly un-real icy biological weapon, she claimed to have said the following:

"puppy eyes! puppy eyes! INVINCIBLE!"

I really love Nissa.

THE END

Bah Bah Bah Bah Barbara Ann

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 20:20:39 GMT

That's the way I always see it in my head when I hear that song. Right.

So, since I have had a little more time lately to not freak out about theatre projects, I have been reading up on current events. You have no idea how much it frustrated me last semester to be out of the loop and have almost no bearing on what was going on--besides the big political disasters that took place because of and in terms of re-electing the Bush administration.

So, new cabinet nominations and such. I quote Jon Stewart when I say "Wha-wha-wha?!" Can't even speak. While I will say that I think the office of homeland security sometimes seems a bit ridiculous in my mind (simply because we already had agencies that performed these duties and the only public face of the office is mainly a bunch of colored warnings CNN parades on the bottom of the screen), I still believe that if the agency is going to exist, it should be run by someone who is qualified--not a college buddy of George Bush! Alberto Gonzales has been Bush's lawyer for many years even before he became president. This is NOT a place for him to hand out favors to all his buds.

What could possibly make me angrier? Oh, I don't know, maybe the fact that Bush is suddenly so gunho about privatizing social security even though that was never mentioned during the campaign. A greater number of people oppose this plan than the number of people who voted for him! He claims social security will be bankrupt in 2040. No it won't! Analysts say that the SURPLUS will last until 2042 and then social security should be able to run as it was meant to, but in balance until many more decades after that. Privatizing social security WILL cause people to be without money. Simply because one janitor in Texas retired with $1,500,000 does not mean that this is a plan that will work overall. Bad investments then mean bad retirement and bad economy then screws everyone over. If there's another market crash, all the social security money people have saved tied up in investment goes down the tubes!

Ok, I'm done with my political rant. Sorry if it was long. I had a lot of fun this past weekend. May and Kathryn, I loved having you guys down here and I'm glad you got to meet a few more people. I was watching The American President today. I love that movie. It filled me with idealism and hope--as most Aaron Sorkin pieces do.

I got hit on Friday--minor, just a small dent in the front of my car. It wasn't my fault at all. I was driving on a street trying to find a parking spot and a girl pulled out of a driveway, not seeing me obviously, and hit me. The dent was so small and no one was hurt (we were both going maybe 7-8 mph at the most) i didn't call the police. I figured it was no biggie. But after talking to my dad, I realized I had to fill out a police report. So I got up earlier than I normally do on a Tuesday and now I'm tired. Boo hiss.

So, uh, Brigitte, you wanna play Dark alliance again? Huh? Huh?

Yeah, tomorrow's Alias Da--I mean, Wednesday. Yes. I'm going back to class now.

[mood| Tired]

Is it healthy to lust after your layout?

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 04:28:42 GMT

[mood| Naughty]

I decided to change my layout when I found this wallpaper..which of course led me to change almost everything. I like my new comment tags and title too--hee!

Nissa! I love your Marshall icons. I'd been looking for one like that so I sort of stole it. Bad Flumpy!

So, May, are you coming down? Kathryn? Eh? Eh?

Classes have been okay so far. I love my Foundations of Criminal Investigation class. So. Cool.

Physics. Well, I didn't mind until this morning when my discussion teacher embarassed me in front of the whole class. The only reason I went to the board to do the problem was because no one else in my group had a clue as to what to do. I get up there and find out she gave us wrong information or we heard her wrong or something so all my calculations are wrong. Anyway, I set up the problem correctly, but there's some division and I"m panicking in my head, so I just turn to the class and ask for a calculator because I didn't bring one--because it's the first discussion this semester. She sighs and does the calculation in her head, writin it on the board. Then, she wants me to just figure out the rest of the problem even though when we asked her about it---Argh! I'll stop ranting now.

In good news, I had a pretty fine day at work. I came up with the activity we need to put on the show next week all on my own--no internet, no help from anyone else. okay, so all I came up with was taking someone's blood pressure, but we were really in a hole.

Organic lab doesn't seem too bad so far. I hear it's just tedious. It's taught by this adorable asian grad student--awww. He's so cute and a little terrified of people. I always like those lab instructors more becuase they're not jerks.

I finally found people to watch Alias with. Well, I'm slowly getting Althea hooked too, but I have up to date people as well. Plus, almost everyone at work watches the show. Stephanie and I got into this whole conversation about the show and hating Lauren. She doesn't get ABC on her TV because it sucks, so she's watching the 3rd season DVD's now and a friend of hers is taping the 4th season so she can watch it when she's up-to-date. I ♥ Marshall Finkman. That moment where he actually argues with Vaughn and then Vaughn gets this adorable proud look on his face. I just want Nadia to die, though, and I do NOT want Jack to be bad! I hear things about Vaughn's dad, though. I don't know what. But Vartan gave some interview and said something like "...and now with Vaughn's dad and everything." He gave it while taping one of the 4th season shows. Sarke will be back for sure too!

I have to go study for my organic chem quiz. Yeah. First week. I know.

As much as i hate Lauren, this was funny

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 20:09:39 GMT

I want to have sex with Michael Vartan.

I like my new icon because that was my reaction. Good Alias premiere. Wonderful break so far--exactly what I needed.

Recent events have made me wonder though whether or not there are more options I want to explore in regards to the future. I've looked into History and International Relations and Political Science degrees, but I don't want a third major and I don't want to give up the ones I have right now. Then I realized, what I really want is just to speak more languages than I do and actually KNOW about what's going on in the world instead of always having to have it explained to me. So, maybe I just need to read more books and study this stuff on my own.

Well, I really must go. I'll try to update later.

Whew! Thank GOD that's over....

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 00:49:27 GMT

Whoa am I glad classes are done for this semester! Isn't it a little weird to look forward to Finals week? Ah well. Stress is gone in more ways than one.

Can I just say how much I love "Wasted Time." I love how smooth and sweet it is. The Eagles are just so perfect.

I only got about 3 hours of sleep last night, so I'm gonna go nap. But I am SO partying tonight to celebrate not having "class" for the next month or so! Woo hoo!

On a sad note, I'm already missing Directing.

So those I talked to, everything is much better now. Between heightened emotions over finals and miscommunication, there was a lot of...."bad-ness." I was "wiggin' out" so to speak. Hee. Buffy.....

So, I ate real food for the first time today around 6p. Not good?

I want to see I Heart Huckabees right now for some reason. Damn there being no instant DVD.*whining* Why won't you obey my every whim?!

Thanks for the help everyone!

That is all

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 02:34:36 GMT

I would like to go on the record and say What the fuck?!

Edit: People have talked me down from my place of "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh"-dom. I am more sane and less confused now. I am a good friend and nothing more (for now at least). That suits me just fine.